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Sunday, May 07, 2006a love story, part fiveMy brother lives just as far from our hometown as I do, but he visited regularly. He was still very much a part of life in this town. I, on the other hand, had only been whispered and rumored about through the years. Despite my brother's encouragement, I still felt like the town itself was throwing me out.Our arrival at the church was quite similar to how I had pictured it. More of the conversations I experienced earlier in the day. My brother was easing through the tension with charm and grace. I wondered how many people will show. Surely, most of the town will, although they had no real relationships with either of my parents. Then I began to think of my funeral. Who would be there? Just as I saw the chief of police approach, I mentally concluded my funeral would be a small one. He wanted to update me about the status of the case. He was trying to appear sympathetic, but I could see his excitement about having a big case on his watch. This was not kids trespassing and occasional acts of vandalism. This is two murders. I realized at that point I had not yet come to terms with the gravity of the situation. Prior to this, I was angry at my mother, but only for killing herself, not for killing my father. I began to think I needed to feel some real loss. I was tangled in what the appropriate feelings to your mother's killing your father when I was bumped by someone to my left. It was the man in the photo with my dad. He told me a story I was not prepared to hear. Or believe. I said nothing. [part i, ii, iii, iv, v, and vi.] posted by jessica at 5:07 AM -
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The Sneetches by Dr. Seuss. This is one of my absolute favorite stories. Focusing on prejudice, it demonstrates the silliness of segregating people based on categories (race, religion, gender, etc). The story's strength is that it shows just how arbitrary these categories are.
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